A true Masochist? Me?

Yes. Things do happen that indicates that I enjoy the pain itself. That is I enjoy the feelings it generates in my body. Pain is pain - it hurts. But what happens when I'm lying naked in front of someone who wants to hear and see me cry, and who has the instruments to provoke that reaction in me? I start getting excited - it all happens - I get moist, my nipples grow and feel like they are going to burst - I fear the coming pain and I long for the pain.

I have been many times now right at the edge.. the edge of oblivion..opf disappearing into the pain and the orgasm that just puts me into that incredible state of just being a body - and nothing else -

I dream of falling off that edge.